Precious Wonders

dear diary, lots of things happened today..from me failin both my calculus and physics test to me gettin 300 bucks to me feelin very excited to write this blog. This blog is gonna be more of a tribute than just another daily event in my life.today i did my physics and calculus test..it was super hard and i feel bad about not studyin long enough..even though i may have not slept in 2 days, i keep feelin guilty about not startin my revision days ago..The physics test wasnt as easy as it looked. Sure the formulas were quite easy to remember but to apply it to the question was very difficult and its somethin i have to overcome by the time i get to the Finals..But Calculus..well where can i even begin? In the exam hall, i sat in the very front seat(the place where you cant cheat because the invigilator is right on ur ass)..so there i was, in my grey sweater and my navy green baggy pants and white adidas, lookin around at the other kids who were answerin the questions confidently and easily as if it was 2+2..i was soo out of ideas and my brain wasnt functionin well...the guy next to me tried to look at my paper..i shook my head and mouthed 'no fuckin way' because theres indeed no fuckin way hes gonna get a right answer by lookin at my paper..so i kinda did him a favor..hahaha i was scribblin on the question paper and practin drawin a face i remember so well whereever i go. it was a face of a girl, whom i keep thinkin about everytime im not talkin to someone. She's so sweet with her perfect smile, her lovely eyes and her cute nose..It'd be quite embarassin if she had seen the drawin that i made because it was soo horribly drawn..i guess im not good when it comes to drawin people's face...but i dont care, cause that way she'll only appear in my head..every now and then i laugh softly like a loser when i think about her. To me, shes the most beautiful angel ive ever seen. No words can describe how i feel about her. She's so special to me, my more than friend. I keep picturin her in my head..
Minutes pass as I did nothin but think about this girl. Why cant i find someone like her in Malaysia..shes one of a kind. I looked at the clock on the wall and it says 5pm...15 more minutes till the test finishes. I started panickin in a way because I know i'm gonna fail this test therefore theres gonna be consequences. My dads gonna kill me, moms gonna cut down my allowance..im gonna be in a lot of shit. but then i looked down on my answer booklet and i saw the face that i had drawn earlier; i felt relieved and happy in a way. I no longer feel scared cause whenever i think about her, i feel calm. She's the only one that can make me happy. When the clock finally strikes 5:15pm, the invigilators took our answer booklet away and ordered us to leave the hall in a civilised manner...on the whole, i did only 3 out of 7 questions which was not that bad i guess because i chose to do the questions with the most points..on my way out, everyone was talkin about how hard and how stressful the test was..i just smiled because as stupid as i was in dreamin about her for almost the whole hour, i never regret one second of it..i guess you can say that this is the day i realise how important she is to me. Ill always love her

Wherever you are, this one is for you..

-Haz